Monday, March 24, 2014

HOW TO KILL YOURSELF

I was talking to a friend who was feeling incredibly upset and frustrated at certain things in his life. On top of that, he was lost for direction of what he wanted to do with his future and was awfully down and depressed.

I asked him " What do you love? "

Blank stare.

" What makes you feel thankful to be alive? "

He thought about it for a while, then answered forlornly " Nothing. "

" Okay. Maybe there is nothing in life that regularly excites you right now. But look back and recap the years of your life. There must have been instances you felt your heart pound so fast you thought it would explode, a frighteningly delicious thrill that ran down your spine and made you quiver. What were they? "

He pondered. His eyes lit up. The beginnings of a smile tugged the corners of his mouth.

" When I was 15, I stole a candy bar. My friends and I ran away as hard and fast as we could, then finally collapsed amidst gasps of laughter with utter relief and terror, giddily drunk high on exhilaration. "

I responded

" I don't think it was the specific act of taking a candy bar in itself. It was stepping outside the shackles of monotony and going against the cogs of the mundane, defying expectations, challenging the norm, saying 'to hell with the rules' that brought you that burst of sheer freedom and pure ecstasy. "

" Well guess what? You CAN relive it, in fact over and over again. "

" You can't go on doing the same things you've been doing for the past 5 years and expect to wake up to a different tomorrow, that things will all of a sudden drastically change for the better. " 

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" So do something that terrifies you. That goes against and destroys the very person that you are so unhappy with right now. Put an end to this boring, meaningless, unfulfilled life that you hate, and start doing it today. "

" It doesn't have to be something gargantuan like trekking to the North Pole or conquering Mt Everest or hacking your way through the Amazon jungle. "

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" Start a conversation with a random person. Leave your destructive relationship. Run a 5k. Climb onto the roof and lie facing the stars. Perform in front of a crowd. Go on a road trip. Join a society. Apply for an internship. Buy a plane ticket to anywhere. Start reading (and finish!) a book. Learn the guitar. Write and submit an article. 
Ask someone in queue to share a deal (like those 2-for-1 promos). Go on a hike. Donate blood. Tell someone who's been bothering you. "


" Take a different route home. Ask her out. Try out for a team. Share your umbrella with a stranger. Volunteer in something you're passionate about. Compliment someone on their outfit. Paint. Go rock climbing. Try stand up comedy. Sing your heart out on stage (or a Youtube cover). Lift some weights. Write a song. Get a (part-time) job. Shave your head (or maybe just change your hairstyle). Sit with someone who's eating alone. "

For every time that you do something which terrifies you to death ; a tiny part of the old you dies inside, allowing yourself to be reborn a little more towards the person you desire to be and bringing you a step closer to living the life you want.


                        

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