Saturday, February 22, 2014


" Decide what you want, or it will be decided for you. "

Of late, I have been on the receiving end of the aforementioned phrase. The people who tell me this (with good intentions) are mostly substantially older friends whom I look up to ; who are getting somewhere with their lives.

I get what they mean. If you don't have a clear goal to solidify yourself to, if you lack a strong purpose and do not have a defined direction - then you are as adrift as a reed, tossed and thrown about this stormy maelstrom that is life.

Decide what you want. Then with determination and with utmost urgency, get up and go! Channel all your energy, focus your entire being, put everything you have into getting there. 

But how can I decide where I want to be, when I'm not even aware of what endless possibilities lie out there?

(Deconstructively put, it would be akin to having to place your order when you don't even know what's on the menu.)

How would I know what I should be looking for, if I haven't even seen, felt, touched, or experienced it?

I don't even know myself well enough to know what I should be looking for.

And how would I figure myself out ; how would I learn and develop and grow as a person if not for trying new things, venturing from my comfort zone, taking on challenges, putting myself out there and exploring the world that lies beyond what is familiar (even if it scares the heck out of me)?


Tuesday, February 18, 2014


WOD 15th Feb 2014 : Kalsu

Complete 100 thrusters while doing 5 burpees every minute on the minute.


Tuesday, February 11, 2014


I had an interesting conversation with a friend. He was telling me about how he came to choose his faith (I don't like using the word 'religion', somehow it sounds so 'religious' which carries this air of formality and all these holier-than-thou connotations, anyway I digress.)

As a kid, he had never been very interested in these matters. However when he came to his late teens he started deeply questioning things like the purpose of existence, life after death, etc. He also told me he felt spiritually hollow, hence began to seek fulfillment and answers.

The faith that his family sporadically observed was one that held reincarnation as one of its fundamental pillars. This was what he found most difficult to grasp.

From what he told me (correct me if I'm wrong) what reincarnation says is that if a person does good deeds, after his death he'll be able to be reborn into a higher class of society / family / background, and if he consistently carries out good deeds, this cycle of redemption and reincarnation goes on until finally, he reaches Nirvana. 

However, if a person does evil deeds, he will be condemned by being reborn into a lower class of society. If he is still stubbornly unrepentant, it could result in him being reincarnated as an animal. This was what my friend was unable to comprehend.

///" What if I become a dog? As an animal, how would I be judged as to whether I'm good or bad? "
///" I guess if you 'fetch', that makes you a good dog. Then if you bite, that makes you a bad dog. "
///" But what if I become something like say, a ladybug? What then? What good can a ladybug do to redeem itself? "

Frankly speaking, I have no idea what good (or evil) deeds a ladybug would be capable of doing. Nevertheless, it was an amusing conversation and gave me an interesting perspective to chew on.

Tuesday, February 4, 2014




It doesn't matter.

I just want to.


Monday, February 3, 2014


With all the excitement of CNY, forgetting that Valentine's Day lies only around the corner seemed all too easy.

Until of course, someone comes along and starts pouring their heart out to me (somehow lots of people tell me their stories ; apparently I have'good insight' and 'broad perspective' hmm anyway.)

My friend told how he has been hopping from girl to girl, date after date. At the same time he told me how he felt these dates were frivolous, empty, somehow lacking in substance. He asked me what was missing and my advice on how he could develop a meaningful relationship.

He theorized that his tendency to flit from one female to another stemmed from fear of commitment. According to him, he is absolutely terrified of being 'tied down' or having to live up to expectations of a relationship. 

After listening, I asked 

Me: "You say you're afraid of commitment. Is it your desire to grow old alone and pass away on your own?"
Him: "Of course not."

Me: "So since you have no wish to be alone, it can only mean you DO desire real and lasting companionship, and for that to come you would first have to commit to someone. Therefore, you are not afraid of commitment. The reason you have not been able to commit, is because you have not yet met the right girl. "

" When the right person appears and you realize that she is 'The One', you would have absolutely no qualms about doing what it takes to have a solid relationship with her. "