guess what guess what?
I'VE GAINED WEIGHT.
shock, horror, the end of the world? no siree. on the contrary, i shall be reasonable and practical and deal with this in an entirely levelheaded and calm manner.
on hindsight, i SHOULD have seen this coming. while interning was a lovely enlightening experience, what was not so lovely was sitting a desk some 9hours+ every single day. tsk, tsk, hard to handle for a lively jumpy person as myself. yes i still did go running in the mornings and evenings. nevertheless considering the fact that i was being seriously inactive for such a large amount of time i must say i ate way more calories than my body needed. and those calories found their way to my thighs.
also, i was snacking much too frequently at work.
cheers for it all being healthy (oats, yogurt, wholegrain peanutbutter sandwiches, fruits) but i can now testify firsthand that you CAN eat healthy and gain weight if you don't keep track of the amount you eat. you can't exactly expect to inhale your weight in peanutbutter sandwiches (yes they're healthier than most, but as with all foods still a source of calories nonetheless.) spending that long in the office staring at a screen, issues like this just sorta generally drifted round and about while never really registering in my mind, y'know?
apart from that, i've realized that over the past two months, i've been much too lax with the indulgences. yes treats are fine (even encouraged) every once in a while. however, saying 'just this once' too many times over resulted in those itty bitty calorie traps becoming a regular occurrence, which equal some extra junk in my trunk DUN DUN DUN.
have these pair of shorts which i wear loose (while i disagree with the display-your-entire-buttcrack-for-the-world-to-see style, i quite like them slung low on my hips.)
so the chubs stealthily stole upon my person, and i happily went about in oblivion until last week when i pulled on the said pair of shorts and they fit fine. i thought "oh maybe they shrank in the wash?" but then proceeded to try on other clothes. gosh, and they all felt more snug. eventhough they still fit me (yes i can still wear my size 3 roxy shorts thankyouverymuch) but this was solid PROOF that i have gained a few inches all over.
at first i was
but then i was like
no, i am not happy with this. and i'm not going to take this sitting down.
i'm going to fight it by i'm going to making changes and i WILL get results.
my plan of attack is simple and only involves these steps :
- stop eating around the clock
- move more
- indulge less
and above all, to BE PATIENT. it took me about two months to gain this weight, so i'm going to be realistic and give myself roughly a month and a half to get back in shape.
weight loss is not a destination, it's a journey and a lifelong one at that. your body does not stay in one shape forever. you can either be dedicated and mindful to be in your best form possible, or continuously lazy and uncaring to become sloppy and unfit. i've been careless but i'm dusting myself off and going at it once more.
it's like a neverending climb ; at the top (all sexy and foxy) one must be careful not to to let one's guard down knocking back margherita after margherita as it can derail the effort that you've put into obtaining that achievement. that being said, if you've lost focus and now find yourself at the bottom, don't worry too much or be too upset as tomorrow is a new day and another chance!
i may have slipped up, but i refuse to be glum and miserable about this setback. i've done it before ; i CAN AND WILL do it again.
tomorrow i'll be going to a gathering-slash-potluck which inevitably means copious amounts of food. while everyone attacks the table, i'll be standing at the back muttering to myself repeating everything i've said in this post lest i *somehow* become so disoriented by the mountain of morsels that i somehow forget that i want to lose weight and am supposed to be watching what i eat.
repeat after me.
I SHALL NOT CAVE.
I HAVE WILLPOWER OF STEEL.
THAT CHOCOLATE MUD CAKE DOES NOT LOOK APPETIZING AT ALL WHO CARES ABOUT CHOCOLATE CAKE ANYWAY.